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5 Years Later: In Shadow’s Shadow; 9/11, Neil Gaiman, and me.

Five years ago, I wrote this piece about 9/11 and how it affected me. I think this year it is once again fitting to post as this year saw the release of Starz’s adaptation of Gaiman’s classic.

So without further ado, I give you my blog IN SHADOW’S SHADOW; 9/11, NEIL GAIMAN AND ME.

After the re-posting of this blog, I’ll embed a special video that fits the piece.


In the days before September 11, 2001 my family had much to celebrate. The adoption of my sister was finalized, we attended a wedding of a cousin in Colorado, and got to spend lots of time with family. During that trip I made it a point to make sure we stopped at a bookstore. I have always been kind of a book nut, so no one was surprised on that Sunday afternoon, September 9, when I walked out with two brand new books, an anniversary copy of William Goldman’s The Princess Bride and a newer book that I had recently read a review of called American Gods. I was familiar with the author, Neil Gaiman, but not versed in his writings. This was to be my initial exposure.

On Monday, the 10th, I read Goldman’s book and fell in love with Buttercup and Wesley all over again. The Princess Bride is an American classic that never fails to spark my imagination. I probably watched the movie that evening, although I can’t remember for sure, but that is usually par for the course for me, read a book and if it’s available watch the movie. I know I did some prep work for auditions at Colby Community College the next day. They were doing the play Heaven Can Wait. If you don’t know that story, it’s about a boxer who dies before his time and is sent back into the body of a dying millionaire. He finds love and his world is changed.

I woke up Tuesday morning, September 11, and didn’t turn on the television. I’m a TV junkie, so this was a little weird for me. I didn’t turn on the radio, I didn’t have the internet in my little studio apartment, so there was no doing that. What I did do was pick up American Gods and begin to read.

American Gods is a “desert island” book for me. It’s a book I find challenging and inspiring and a true classic. It tells the story of a man, Shadow, who is released from prison a week early due to his wife’s untimely death. On his trip home, he finds himself being pursued and followed by a strange, older fella named Mr. Wednesday. Mr. Wednesday offers Shadow a job as his bodyguard. With really nothing left to live for, Shadow goes along for the ride. Along the way, while his zombie wife follows him and warns him, he discovers that the world he knew, isn’t what it seems.

American Gods is about the death of one world pushing against the on coming push of a new world. it’s about gods, myth, and magic. It’s about technology and its hold over us today. It’s about change. It’s about being lost in a world that is changing itself around us, reshaping itself, molding itself into something new and scary.

I read this book, all day, never once did my TV click on or did I tune in the radio. This would be betraying Shadow, and Mr. Wednesday, and Mr. Nancy, and Mr. Gaiman. I set, in a complete media blackout, while the world around me changed in a moment.

I went to auditions that night, which had been cancelled, and that’s when I found out, at 7pm CST, I found out what had happened. I, like everyone else, was in shock. Everything made sense now. The leaked words through thin plaster walls, dividing me from my neighbors, that “it looked like something out of Independence Day.” The lack of cars on the streets, the lack of activity anywhere. The fact that the radio station I worked for at that time, was airing the Presidents speech, when they hardly ever did things like that.

I felt like Shadow, lost in the shadows, not knowing what was going on. Lost, confused, shocked. I could take you to one of my “thinking spots” I went to that night. The place my friends Shane, Lacy, and Becca found me at. I can take you to the parking lot where the news was first delivered to me. I could show you the apartment we all went to and watched CNN, and Fox News, and Headline News, and CNBC and every other channel that was airing news. I could take you to the small Baptist church I went to and prayed. And even though I’m not a Baptist, it seemed like the thing to do.

I remember pouring over my Bible, looking for answers that didn’t come easily. Of drawing conclusions that probably weren’t there. The world around me had changed and I was fighting that change. I wanted to stay locked in a small bubble, in Shadow’s shadow, where maybe things weren’t safe but I couldn’t get hurt. Where I was forced to think, but not put thoughts into action.

Good literature forces us to think and to act. A life changing moment causes us to act and to think. For me those two worlds collided as a tower fell in New York City.

How has the world changed in 11 years? We’re a much more global society then we were then. As high speed and wireless internet has been developed along with cheaper, faster, more mobile computers and smartphones, more people are “online”. Information is passed along, thanks to social media sites, as they happen. In 2001, there was no global Facebook or Twitter. There were no smart phones and instant Instagram uploads. No YouTube. No Netflix. That’s life on a global, technological scale. What has happened to YOU personally in the last 11 years?

At the time, Shane, Lacy, and Becca were my best friends. My only friends. The 4 of us were almost inseparable. We went to church together, we went out to eat together, we were always at one another’s houses. We were hungry for a fresh spiritual awakening. And in the years that followed, we did grew up. They all three are married now, to wonderful, godly people. Becca has two beautiful daughters. Lacy quit her long time job and moved to a small town when she got married. Shane just bought a house. I floated from job to job working in various media jobs (radio and newspaper) and hospitality fields (hotel and restaurant). Last year, I lost my job and decided to go back to college. I rediscovered my love of acting and theater. I’ve been privileged to travel over the world. I’ve made new friends and reacquainted myself with some old ones. I’ve had a play published. I’m trying to make this writing/acting thing work for me while I juggle a job and schooling.

In many ways I’m in a similar place to where I was 11 years ago. Then I had just moved back to my home town and made some new friends and sparked an old friendship. Today I’m in a different town with probably as many friends, some new and some old. I didn’t act in Heaven Can Wait in the fall of 2001, I dropped out for personal reasons. I really wanted to do the fall musical here,  Curtains, but I didn’t get cast. That’s life though. In 2001 I was a scared 24 year old kid. Scared, not that terrorists had attacked us, but scared of change and what the meant. Now I’m a 35 year old man, and while I’m still scared of change, and I think we all are, I no longer fight change, I embrace it. And that, I think, would make Shadow proud.


Thanks for taking the time to read that. I know it’s different then what I normally and nominally blog about. But I couldn’t pass up the chance to reblog it.

Now, I’d like to present to you my short monologue, WARNING SHOTS, as performed by Jocelyn Goodwin.

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Welcome Back

So, I’ve been gone for awhile. Not for lack of wanting to be, but just a lack of time. I’ve been devoting myself to my writing and to my life outside of writing and have put my website and blogging on the back burner.

So what has been happening? Well besides me listening to Hamilton obsessively?

Well first, we have a new, updated domain name. We are now a [dot]Com

3 Million.

Last October, I premiered a new play via Sherri’s Playhouse, a feature of the podcast Chatting With Sherri, called #JohnDoe. The last count of downloads I received was around 3 million downloads. #JohnDoe is a long one-act comedy about life, love and reality TV. A wealthy family, known more for their antics on television and reality TV, find themselves in a will dispute when their entrepreneur patriarch suddenly dies of cancer. What follows is a hunt for a mysterious friend of the deceased who is also a beneficiary of the estate so that they can all receive their share of the inheritance.  #JohnDoe starred Tonia Lee, Summer Patrick, Cathy Kutz, James McCollough, Everett Robert, Raymond Brent, David Koshiol, Jen Gray, Savy Gray, and Debbie Herriman.

Hays, KS

#JohnDoe was then staged on the stage with Hays Community Theater at the end of April. This production also starred me and some of the original cast members (Jen Grey, Savy Gray, Raymond Brent) but also Wendy Richtmaier, Tammy Watford, Tammy Freeman, Jerret Leiker, Brian Kingsolver.

Lawrence, KS

My short monologue, Warning Shots, was performed by EMU Theater in Lawrence, KS in November of 2015. My little play shared the stage with Will Averill, Robert Baker, Dan Born, Evan Guilford-Blake, Nick Stock, and (another Hays, KS resident) Catherine Trieschmann. Warning Shots recounts the two different attacks on Lawrence, KS during the Civil War from the perspective of a young girl who witnessed it.

Kalamazoo, MI

My new play, Thoughts and Prayers, went up this past August in Kalamazoo, MI from Fancy Pants Theater as part of their political play series. Thoughts and Prayers details several shootings across the United States over the past couple of years and how the phrase “you’re in my thoughts and prayers” isn’t wholly the answer.

What’s Coming up?

I’ve written two more short plays for Sherri’s Playhouse, one an original western and the other and adaptation of Robert Louis Stevenson’s The Suicide Club.  So be looking for more information on those as they come up.

Thanks again for sticking with me and embarking on this new adventure, once again

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Same Look, New Content

So the past couple of days, I’ve been doing some minor tweeking here and there to Emergency Room Productions website. If you haven’t poked around lately, I encourage you to do so. The look remains the same, but new content has been added.

It’s been an exciting couple of months for me, as yo can tell by some of the new content. The first thing I want to point out is that I’ve modified the right side of the page so you can see my tweets easier and join me on Goodreads. If you’re not my fan there or you don’t follow me on Twitter or like me on Facebook, why not?

Then I want to direct your attention to is a new video on my video page. It’s the second reading of my short play Sunday Dinner, this time presented by Spokane Stage Left in Spokane, WA. I’m toying with putting this up as a script sample as well, if that is something that might be of interest, let me know in the comments!

Next, I want to direct you to my News page, where you can listen to my entire interveiw with Sherri Ribbonwitz on the BlogTalkRadio show “Chatting With Sherri”. This was a fun 30 minute interview I did on December 24, 2013.

Finally, if you make your way to my Rights page, you will see that I’ve added a new script that can be purchased. Black Box Theater Publishing has published a collection of four of my short scripts, titled “Based On The…”. This script is available for purchase from Amazon.com, so help me out and put a little money in my pocket by picking up a copy today.

Thanks for sticking with me over here on my tiny atom (or would that be pixel?) of the web as we continue to grow Emergency Room Productions.